It’s been a huge year, this past one. We moved to the country. We renovated a farm house. Since we moved in during the summer I have been feeling really stressed. I have been looking for health reasons for how I feel; something to pin it on. But it isn’t that simple. I’ve been in a cycle where my energies are all askew. Sometimes I am high, sometimes I am low. I often struggle to sleep. I have too much going on in my head. Occasionally I socially binge drink, thinking “hey, I deserve this blowout!” – then I feel terrible the next day. I’ve been very tearful. And I’ve been getting increasingly shouty with the kids, which was literally making me feel physically bad.
So I have decided to really make changes to my life. One of the things I am doing to achieve a better balance is to walk – and it is really helping. Here are some ways that walking enables me to be a better mum…
You notice things
When you go for a walk, you start to really look at things. Especially if you take a camera. You don’t stride on obliviously. Instead you are on the look out. You stop and stare. You notice things. And this noticing is very relaxing as it happens. It takes your mind away and let’s it rest. Later that day, when my daughter has another poo accident, instead of getting annoyed (potty training in a week? Try 15 months!) I notice that she seems ashamed and anxious when I clean her up. Lightbulb moment: my narkiness is making things worse. Time for a change: me, not her.